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Dear younger me

Dear Younger MeBy MercyMe

Dear younger me

Where do I start

If I could tell you everything that I have learned so far

Then you could be

One step ahead

Of all the painful memories still running thru my head

I wonder how much different things would be

Dear younger me,

Dear younger me

I cannot decide

Do I give some speech about how to get the most out of your life

Or do I go deep

And try to change

The choices that you’ll make cuz they’re choices that made me

Even though I love this crazy life

Sometimes I wish it was a smoother ride

Dear younger me, dear younger me

If I knew then what I know now

Condemnation would’ve had no power

My joy my pain would’ve never been my worth

If I knew then what I know now

Would’ve not been hard to figure out

What I would’ve changed if I had heard

Dear younger me

It’s not your fault

You were never meant to carry this beyond the cross

Dear younger me

You are holy

You are righteous

You are one of the redeemed

Set apart a brand new heart

You are free indeed

Every mountain every valley

Thru each heartache you will see

Every moment brings you closer

To who you were meant to be

Dear younger me, dear younger me

You are holy

You are righteous

You are one of the redeemed

Set apart a brand new heart

You are free indeed

You are holy

You are righteous

You are one of the redeemed

Set apart a brand new heart

You are free indeed

You are holy

You are righteous

You are one of the redeemed

Set apart a brand new heart

You are free indeed

Songwriters: Barry Graul / Bart Millard / Ben Glover / David Arthur Garcia / Mike Scheuchzer / Nathan Cochran / Robby Shaffer

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A story about ME


I am honored to be a guest story teller for Ali Edwards this month for the story theme ME. 

This is me at 5 years old. Young and vibrant and about to have a younger sibling. 5 years old is when some of my childhood memories began to stay with me. 5 years is the age of my oldest son currently. 


5 years old is when I began to understand the world wasn’t perfect and those placed as my role models in life were flawed. Sometimes in life the words of a song resonate deeply with how I feel and the song “dear younger me” by Mercy Me is one of those songs. 


If I knew then what I know now, would I have changed things? Maybe but the events of life have shaped who I am right now. Part of that is hurt and betrayal. Part is full of love and care from unexpected sources. A few years ago I might have said, YES change it all! 


Since becoming a memory keeper, a story recorder, a documentor of life; I now say NO, keep it all the same because I am embracing my story as it happens. I am the author of the story and while the supporting characters play a role, they will not define me and my story. 


I am excited to share more stories with you this month. I hope to encourage, inspire and motivate you to tell the stories about yourself. Happy, sad, and difficult stories that are a part of who you are. Let’s document our lives together!

Dear Younger Me by Mercy Me

Memory keeping · Uncategorized · Week in the Life

Week in the Life 2016 

I decided to keep it simple in order to complete this project. 

Using the project life app, I inserted all my photos into 12×12 layouts. I plan to create a 6×8 journaling overview of each day to be sandwiched between the photo layouts. 

 
MONDAY 


 
TUESDAY 


WEDNESDAY 


 

THURSDAY

 

FRIDAY

 
End of Friday & SATURDAY


SUNDAY



As I finished out the week, I noticed I had less and less pictures. I am ok with that. I worked 4 days in a row and had a traumatic death during that time. I hope to work through those feelings in my journaling portion. 

In the end, I am so happy I took the time to document our lives in a little more detail during this week! 

Because my story matters!

 

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Stackable Icon Stamps

Let me tell you all about the new stackable icon stamps!  Creating lists and making codes is my jam!  These new icon stamps make that colorful, fun and portable.

First up, here is my “key” – what each stamp symbol indicates in my planner. 

 The black box makes the perfect to do list marker.  The red star draws attention to an important item.  The exclamation point shows a jotted down idea or inspiration.  I use the blue thumb up and down.  Up features the high point of my day and the thumbs down is the low point.  Recording a low point may not seem happy but it helps me to determine areas that need more of my focus or attention and allows me to see trends in the days of the week or time of day.  Green asterisk marks items needed or events at the boys school such as class parties, hot lunch day and reminders.  The pink heart lends itself easily to being something I loved.  This includes moments of gratitude and all the times my heart felt full.

Head on over to me & my BIG ideas blog to see more about how I am using these fun, stackable icon stamps!

Memory keeping · Uncategorized · Week in the Life

Saturday’s photos + stories

 Hello Saturday!
 Slept until late morning after working until 3am. 

Outside to check our tiny garden. The birds are eating the seeds! Grrr!
 But the nectarine tree is off the hook with all the fruit. And my tree pruning skills are horrible! 
 
Snuggling on the couch with this guy. I tried to be sly taking this overhead picture and of course he smiled!
 Lunch at Farm Haus with just the hubby. Love these little escapes and time to connect. 

T-Ball with this lovie. 
 
Then off for a quick 4 hour work shift. 

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Friday’s photos + stories

 Hello Friday!
    Before school baseball catches results in the ball landing into the light fixture & a daddy ladder. 

 
 Watching highlights from last nights Giants game.  
 Cup one of one and a half. Barefoot because it is warm already. 
 Jacob served me this delicious felt pizza.  
 I am grateful he was in the mood to chill. He watched a show while I read blogs and drank my coffee. 
 Friday mornings have become our trail run mornings. Today was a great jog / walk combo (minus the snake sighting)

 
  We stopped at the lake to play in the water and feel the sand between our toes.

  
   This salad is my jam lately. 
Sitting with daddy before nap time. 
Practicing handlettering.   
This is my only picture from Friday afternoon (2pm – 3am were spent at work)

The contrast between the floors of our women & children’s hospital struck me as I rode the elevator. 

The 2nd floor is labor and delivery – new lives being brought into the world. Joy & Excitement. 

The 1st floor is the neonatal ICU – tiny lives hanging on & parents hoping they grow & thrive. 

4th floor is my home – pediatric ICU. Tonight is represented death, tragedy, tears and heart break. The start of a battle against cancer. The middle of a long, dramatic battle. The end of a battle that no one knew was a battle. 

The wounds are deep and have left marks on my soul. 

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Thursday’s photos + stories

Hey there Thursday!  Half way through the week and I am loving this project!

 

I want to remember … how excited the boys are to get mail from grandma and papa.  How Jacob sleeps with a little penguin named Waddles and holds him with the clip.  How Dylan always requests chocolate chip pancakes for breakfast.

 

I want to remember …. how amazing my first year of bible study has been.  How the ladies in my group are kind, wise and thoughtful.  How Jacob likes to put his childcare pick up sticker on me like I put his sticker on him.

I want to remember … how we played superhero by chasing each other around the living room with our capes on.  How I chose to not worry about the laundry and instead play.

 

I want to remember … this sweet boy’s imagination and kind heart.  How he microwaved jelly beans for his super hero snack and saved one for Dylan.

I want to remember … how good it feels to each a homemade lunch outside on the patio.

I want to remember … how I excited was to became a nurse.  How I love pediatric intensive care.

I want to remember … how I really want to learn to intubate.  How I enjoy the fast pace of a busy PICU.  How it feels to help save the life of a child!

(Photos I didn’t take but want to remember: How Thursdays are the day Gabee picks up Dylan from school.  How Dylan never carries in his backpack and Gabee carries it all in.  How I try to get Jacob to nap and today he was not feeling it.  How relieved I am that Friday morning means sleeping in because D is off work!)